Sunday, 23 March 2025

rereads and regrets│SMALL THOUGHTS #3


It's time for my first series of mini reviews in 2025! I've had a good start to the year when it comes to my reading goal - I'm ahead by three books. But I know how quickly it can go downhill when life gets in the way, so we'll just have to see how it goes. Here are my thoughts on some of the books I've been loving and...no so loving lately. ðŸ˜¬

The Raven Cycle by Maggie Stiefvater 


It is freezing in the churchyard, even before the dead arrive. 

Every year, Blue Sargent stands next to her clairvoyant mother as the soon-to-be dead walk past. Blue herself never sees them—not until this year, when a boy emerges from the dark and speaks directly to her. 

His name is Gansey, and Blue soon discovers that he is a rich student at Aglionby, the local private school. Blue has a policy of staying away from Aglionby boys. Known as Raven Boys, they can only mean trouble. 

But Blue is drawn to Gansey, in a way she can’t entirely explain. He has it all—family money, good looks, devoted friends—but he’s looking for much more than that. He is on a quest that has encompassed three other Raven Boys: Adam, the scholarship student who resents all the privilege around him; Ronan, the fierce soul who ranges from anger to despair; and Noah, the taciturn watcher of the four, who notices many things but says very little. 

For as long as she can remember, Blue has been warned that she will cause her true love to die. She never thought this would be a problem. But now, as her life becomes caught up in the strange and sinister world of the Raven Boys, she’s not so sure anymore.
It’s been almost a decade since I read The Raven Cycle for the first time and with the graphic novel coming out this summer, I’ve been missing the gangsey like crazy. So, I thought it was a perfect time for a reread! Up until a few years ago, I wasn’t big on rereads, especially when it comes to a beloved series. I think part of me is always a tiny bit worried that I won’t love something as much the second time around. But something shifted a while and since then I’ve done…um, too many rereads if I’m being honest. 

Needless to say, I loved reading them again just as much this time around. If not more because I didn’t have to stress out about what would happen next. I’m so grateful to these four books because they definitely helped shaped me into the type of reader I am today.

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Kamikaze Boys by Jay Bell 


My name is Connor Williams and people say I’m crazy. But that’s not who I am. They also think I’m straight, and mean, and dangerous. But that’s not who I am. The stories people tell—all those legends they whisper at school—they don’t mean a thing. Only my mother and younger brother matter to me. Funny then that I find myself wanting to stand up for someone else. David Henry, the cute bookish guy who always keeps to himself, is about to get his ass beat by a bunch of dudes bigger than him. I could look away, let him be one more causality of this cruel world… But that’s not who I am. 

Kamikaze Boys, a Lambda Literary award-winning novel, is a story of love triumphant as two young men walk a perilous path in the hopes of saving each other.
I’ve had this one on my TBR for a couple of years after it was recommended to me by a bookseller. I hate to admit it, but it wasn’t the right recommendation. I did not vibe with this book. It was originally published in 2012 I think? But this version was printed in 2019. It’s definitely a product of it’s time, so maybe I would have enjoyed it more in my John Green days? 

2025 me was far too irritated by these characters, and the plot just fell completely flat. I also had some issues with the way the book depicted mental health facilities, too. One of the main characters ends up in one against his will after An Event, and I know some of these places can be awful and more detrimental to a person than helpful, but this just came across as harmful fearmongering

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Angels Before Man by Rafael Nicolas 


A queer retelling of Satan's fall that's part cozy coming of age and part fast-paced tragedy, with a little love story in between – 

In an eternal paradise, the most beautiful angel, Lucifer, struggles with shame, identity, and timidity, with little more than the desire to worship his creator. 

It isn't until the strongest angel, Michael, comes into his life that Lucifer learns to love himself. Along the way, their friendship begins to bloom into something else. Maybe the first romance in the history of everything. 

But this God is a jealous one, and maybe paradise is not paradise.
Oh BOY. I came across this series by accident, and it turned out to be the best kind of accident possible. THESE BOOKS ARE,,,,,, EVERYTHING. It took me a little while to get into the first one, but after a while it had me fully hooked. 

Word of warning though, these books are extremely dark and feature an extensive list of trigger warnings. So definitely check those out before even considering delving into this world. It’s a rewarding process if you do, though. 

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The Golden Raven by Nora Sakavic 


Jeremy Knox is no stranger to damage control, but his last season on an Exy court is off to a disastrous start. The relentless crusade against his newest teammate threatens the haven he and his friends have worked so hard to build. He promised Jean a fun senior year, but tragedy and ugly truths make every step forward an uphill fight. 

Jean Moreau promised the USC Trojans a championship trophy, and he intends to deliver. Granted, it would be significantly easier if they’d slide off their high horses and throw a few elbows on the court. Their steadfast refusal to do things his way is nearly as aggravating as their unwanted affection, but maybe they’re not the ones that need to change. 

With so many ready to drag him down, how can he learn to fly?
It’s not to early to pick your fave book of the year, is it? Because we all know nothing is going to come close to this for me. All For The Game is my series of all time and I still can’t quite believe we’re getting more stories after all these years. 

Getting to see Jean’s healing process is so important to me. This is the second book in the trilogy that revolves around Jean and Jeremy, and I loved it just as much as the first book. Again, I had no idea what to expect, but it still managed to deliver everything I wanted. 

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They’re just some of the books I’ve been reading so far this year! With rereads and books I expected to love before even picking them up, I’ve been rating most of them five stars and I regret nothing. 

What books have you loved recently?

Friday, 28 February 2025

DESKTOP WALLPAPERS: March 2025

Spring is finally coming! So, spring is actually my fave season. I love everything about it from the flowers popping up to the sun shining a tiny bit more. It always marks the start of a new chapter for me. Ready to pick a wallpaper for the new season?

Daisies Wallpaper

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DAISIES! Who doesn't love daisies? I love seeing them begin to reappear in the spring, so I always shoot a few pics of them when I'm out with my camera. 

Gate in the Meadow Wallpaper

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Prefer a calendar with your wallpaper? This is from a spring photoshoot I did a couple of years back when I stumbled across some peaceful woodland. 

Raindrops on Window Wallpaper

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Even though the sun tries to appear more in spring, we still deal with the rain more often than not. This is from a rainy March afternoon that I spent reading by the window. 

Pastel Gradient Wallpaper

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For those of you who want something a bit more minimalist, I've designed another pastel gradient for March with some of my favourite spring colours. 


I hope you all have a wonderful March! What's your favourite thing about spring? ðŸŒ¸


Saturday, 1 February 2025

DESKTOP WALLPAPERS: February 2025

It's finally February!! We're all in agreement that January 2025 was the longest month we've ever lived through, right? But it's over now and we have a fresh new month to contend with. Which means picking a new desktop background


I know February is the month of love with Valentine's Day and all that. But it's not for me. When I think about February, I think about being one step closer to spring, and heading out with my camera to document the changing of the seasons. I think of flowers getting ready to bloom again, and birds waiting for the leaves to reappear. That's the vibe we're going for this month!

Robin Wallpaper

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With Calendar / Without



Starting things off with a pic I snapped during February a few years back! I love photographing birds in my local park, and this little robin was a perfect model. 

Hand Through The Grass Wallpaper

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With Calendar / Without

This pic is a fave of mine from a beach shoot with my sister. I actually love doing photography on the beach in winter because it's far more peaceful! 

Forget-Me-Not Wallpaper

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Who doesn't love some forget-me-nots? I've included this one in order to not completely ignore the spirit of true love this month, since it's a popular bridal flower. Look at me, having a single ounce of romanticism. 

Pastel Gradient Wallpaper

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And finally, here's a little pastel gradient background I put together on Procreate with one of my favourite colour palettes. This one actually ended up being my favourite so it was my pick for the PC this month. 


I hope you enjoy these wallpapers and have a lovely February! If you have any ideas you want me to put together for March, then drop me a comment and let me know. I'm so looking forward to spring. ðŸŒ¸

Wednesday, 15 January 2025

REVIEW: A Wild and Ruined Song by Ashley Shuttleworth

Pages: 432
Format: Hardback
Publisher: Margaret K. McElderry
Genre: Fantasy, LGBT
Release Date: November 12th 2024

Arlo and her friends struggle to rally against an overwhelming foe before time runs out in this gripping final book in the Hollow Star Saga, the urban fantasy series about fae in Toronto. 

Arlo Jarsdel has lost everything. Her family. Her freedom. Her name. And now that she’s sharing her body with Ruin, the formidable titan of devastation, she’s even beginning to lose herself. 

In their most dangerous game of deception yet, Arlo has just one goal: destroy the three Bone Crowns corrupting the mortal and immortal realms before her time runs out and Ruin takes permanent control of her being. 

With Celadon fighting on the political front against the ruthless High Queen Riadne—now armed with the cataclysmic power of her Crown, the Sins, and Ruin—Vehan and Aurelian are scrambling in secret to build an army to rival Riadne’s infernal forces. Meanwhile, Nausicaä will do whatever it takes to save her girlfriend from obliteration, despite knowing the odds of survival are nearly nonexistent. 

When the line between hero and villain becomes blurred, and bonds are put to the ultimate test, it has never been more imperative—or more difficult—to stand united. For this is not the first lifetime that these five friends have faced the evil behind this impending war, but if they can’t find their way back to each other, it might just be their last.

Let’s not call this a review, shall we? I can’t quite put into formal words how I feel about this book, so let’s just say this is me SCREAMING INTO THE VOID. That works, right? 


This was the final instalment in the Hollow Star saga, and I’ve been going insane waiting for this to drop since I finished A Grim and Sunken Vow. And this book? It was everything I could possibly want and more. It picks up a little while after the events of book three, showing us the moments directly after that cliffhanger ending before giving us a time skip. And let me tell you: I was STRESSED. 


Having to experience Arlo being combined with Ruin in this book was a whirlwind. It was cleverly written, especially when switching up between the two of them. I wanted nothing more than for Arlo to be free from Ruin’s grip so she could be herself again, but it was so interesting to see her in a different light. I adored Nausica standing by her side throughout though. My queen. I adore her. 

Don’t get me started on Lethe and Celadon because you know I’ll be here all day. I love them. Deeply. I loved seeing their relationship develop after the third book. I loved every interaction between them. I loved Lethe’s fierce protectiveness, and how Celadon can get away with teasing him when no one else would even dare. I love that they’re destined to find each other in every single lifetime. Have I mentioned that I love them? 


Also: VEHAN AND AURELIAN MY BABIES!!! After being kept apart for most of the third book, I was so thankful to have them practically glued to each other in this one. And I was very happy with a certain momentous occasion that happened during a certain someone’s birthday party. 


  • A bit of everything. This series does such a good job of weaving a little bit of everything into the plot. There’s gods, there’s DND vibes, there’s myths, there’s history. Not to mention the humour. There’s just SO MUCH and it’s all exciting. 
  • Solid relationships. It’s one of the things I love most about this series, actually. There’s great communication between the characters and the angst that does happen is plot related. We love healthy relationships in YA books!!! 
  • Satisfying ending!!! I’m always terrified for endings, especially when it comes to a series I love this much, but I had nothing to fear. In Ashley we trust. 

I don’t even think I can put into words how glad I am that I picked up this series because it means so damn much to me. It was the perfect ending, even though I’m going to miss these characters terribly and would lap up any sort of spin-off or continuation in the future. I wouldn’t mind the details of a certain wedding as a short story, perhaps. Hint hint. But anyway, if you haven’t read these books yet then PLEASE give it a chance. I dare you not to fall in love with this entire cast.

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Wednesday, 8 January 2025

DESKTOP WALLPAPERS: January 2025

A bit of a new type of post for me – wallpapers! I’ve been doing photography for a decade now, and I have far too many spare pictures that are always just wasting away on my OneDrive. So, I thought I’d inject some life into them and turn them into desktop wallpapers. 


Initially, I was simply planning on making them for myself, but I figured I’d share them here in case anyone was looking for a new background. I’m hoping to make some for every month of the year, so keep an eye out in the final few days of January for some February ones!

Snowy Aesthetic Wallpaper 

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With Calendar / Without

This one was taken out of my attic window during a snow fall and I thought it was a perfect representation of a snowy January – cold but makes even the dullest of days feels a little bit magical. Unless you have to go outside. 


Bokeh Snow Wallpaper 

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This is a bokeh pic I snapped of some snowflakes in my back garden. It’s a simpler choice for a background, perfect for you minimalists out there. 

Just the two wallpapers this month for my initial dip into background making, but I’ll have a bigger variety for February so watch this space!

Tuesday, 7 January 2025

Bookish Gift Haul!

HAPPY NEW YEAR LITTLE BOOKWORMS! I thought I’d start 2025 off with a haul of the bookish gifts I received over the festive season. If you want to hear me yap about my favourite books of 2024 though, you can find my reading wrap up over on my booktube channel


So first up, one of my best friends got me this absolutely delicious edition of Maurice, Yes, I know I already have two copies. Yes, I will get more. But I’m completely obsessed with this one because it also has illustrations throughout. I’ll definitely be squeezing a reread into 2025. 


Sticking with the classics, my sister found me this gorgeous copy of Peter Pan. I fixated on this story so much when I was a kid, and as an adult I really want to write my own Peter Pan story that I’ve been planning for a few years. 


Time for some bookish candles? Of course it is. I found an All For The Game candle on Vinted just before Christmas, so I treated myself to it. It’s from a book subscription box that I couldn’t afford at the time, so I’m glad I managed to get my hands on it. 


My sister also decided to go with an All For The Game candle as a gift because I’m very predictable. She got me an Andrew Minyard one from Etsy and not only does it smell lovely, but it also had the cutest packaging with a quote on the inside of the box. 


Back to books: my mum got me We Could Be Heroes by PJ Ellis because it’s on my TBR for the year. I’m so excited to delve into this one because it sounds exactly like the type of story I’d eat right up. 


Her and my sister also teamed up to get me the Japanese edition of Captive Prince because I’ve been after it for so long. I’m in love with it – LOOK AT THE ART!!! 


So my bestie found me some super cute bookish gifts this Christmas, including a Howl’s Moving Castle music box. If you don’t know, Howl is one of my favourite books and movies. I adore both versions of the story so much. 


she also got me these cute little book pins!

And to wrap it up, my sister found some gems on Vinted for me. This Emily Wilde themed planter is an item from a Fairyloot box and it looks so pretty on my shelves that I’ve decided to put my bookmarks on it instead of my plants. 


She also found me a badge inspired by A Dark and Hollow Star, which is one of my favourite series. More people need to pick these books up btw because they’re amazing. 


So, they were my bookish gifts this Christmas. I feel so known by and grateful for my loved ones. I look forward to reading and enjoying these over 2025! 

Did you receive any books this festive season?


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